Yet again

Yeah still in the same spot. No respect. The beatings, put downs, crap like that I still get. I should be used to it by now but I'm not. It sucks but I remember the abuse form before and it sucks. I'd fight back but I don't want to hurt my friends or anyone you know? That's not me. SO I get pushed around. It sucks but its true I am not a fighter by no means I want happiness and peace but just yeah. It sucks. Why isn't there a person I can talk to who'll understand? I need to go back to Spiritual Direction or get Counseling or something because there is no one to talk to. I'm alone and it sucks. Crap.

"I wish... I wish someone would just switch me off and... fix me."