And that's been my feelings for this week. People suck and I dislike it severely. Have had to deal with family issues this week. See, my brother, he likes to complain. A lot. About life and how its not fair and the like. Whenever he gets upset like this he also tends to lose the function of "think before you speak". Which leads to the rest of us either getting annoyed, stress, angry or ALL OF THE FREAKING ABOVE. Yeah that was this week. Needless to say that just spiraled me from "wow it's such a beautiful and nice day" to, "I feel as though committing self destructive acts is the only venting i have". Which is good that I could commit none and after a walk and a red bull I felt calmer and better.
Just..been a fun sea of crap lately and frankly it needs to go find someone else to bite on. To say nothing has been going my way is an understatement. From family issues to my own thoughts, worries and time alone it hasn't been fun. That's right I haven't seen anyone in a looooong while. I dunno maybe it's my own mind lying to me or my depression/loneliness spilling over but it just seems that no one is around or there. Ugh. I hate this. This is one of those times where I'd rather say "screw it!" and then just vanish and start a new life elsewhere. Which honestly is what I feel will probably happen.
Why does life have to be so distasteful?
