Spent the weekend hanging out with my buddy Josh at his new place he's been at for about 6 months now. We'd been trying to hang out for a while but due to the holidays and my being sick for a week and a half a while back it took us till now to finally hang out. Seeing how he's changed since living by himself surprised me. I always believed that living by yourself was an important step because then its not really relying on others like your siblings or parents but now the ball is in your court. At all times. You cook for yourself, you clean for yourself, you have to arrange your own appointments, manage your own bills, and yeah you might do that now but this is all added onto having your own home!
Seeing him living by himself made me realize I have to really buckle down to try and get more of this whole adult thing down. I have the issue that I need to constantly stay on top of myself or have someone constantly reminding me of appointments, bills due, trying to save money and such things like that. It seems daunting an overwhelming sometimes. I ask myself "can I really do this? Can I handle all of this? There's a lot I don't understand.". My greatest fear is failing at life. Letting myself and family down and not amounting to anything because I'm a lazy idiot. I need to break away from my laziness. I need to change that and go and actually do what needs to be done.
Each day is a chance to seize new opportunities. So I guess that's what I need to start doing. Actually getting up and doing. I got a long ways to go but heck there's 365 days in a year and man who knows how many years I got to figure it out but figure it out i shall. My buddy has inspired me to figure it out, get it done and actually be responsible. Thanks Josh.
