In the end...

It was my fault.

So a few weeks ago I was dancing on air. I had actually gone up and asked the girl I liked out to her face ( a big deal for a guy doing this for the first time after so many confessions over phones)and even though she said no she did say that she liked me. I was excited because I had been wanting to ask for a while but hadn't the guts. So ends well right? Wrong. Now since then I have barely talked to her. I mean we were texting constantly and now? Its been a while since I received a text. Sure I could text her but I don't even know the first thing to say. "Hi! How have you been since I asked you out?" I think not. I have no clue if anything is going to happen between us but if our friendship is going to suffer like this I'd rather we stay friends. It sycks. I think I should start texting her like we used to and just see where things go. Gah it sucks.

Just ranting...again

Ugh. Memories. I hate them. Even the happy ones. Why? Because you eventually realize you can't relive them and then you get emo. Like me. Memories of my years in school and outside of school have plagued me recently. Why? I don't know. Could be the music I've been subjecting myself to. My lack of fun, my lack of money to have fun and just really anything about recent life. Sucks. School is trying to kill me but then again anyone in school now or reallly has ever been in school know that. Midterms, papers, long lectures,and just torture. No fun. Especially when I have a day off and forget the majority of my homework and have a nice pile waiting for me to get done. Like I do right now. Ugh. Add that to family issues, my own personal demons attacking me (not in the physical iteral sense) and just other crap and voila you have an iminient break down. But there is music which can save me so that is a plus. I'd like to thank Steve Jobs for the Ipod and Skullcandy for their headphones. There was Halloween this week so that was a plus since it involved candy, 32 ounce monster, movies and free Tacos. Win right? Yeah up till a certain point and then its back to the slump. Crap.

Soundtrack to life

Everyone has one? Here's mine what's yours?

Opening: Three Little Birds-Bob Marley
A day: Mad World-Gary Jules
friends: What's my age again?-Blink 182
First date: Always-Blink 182
Love Scene: Calling you-Blue October
Secret love: Dirty Little Secret-All American Rejects
Fight:Someday: Better Than me-Hinder
Break up: Do you know?-Enrique Iglesias
Life's OK: C'mon C'mon- The Von blondies
Mental Breakdown: Jesus of Suburbia-Green day
Learning a lesson: I so hate consequences-Reliant K
Deep thought: Sadness and sorrow
Flashback: Are you alright?-Lucinda Williams
Happy dance:
Regretting: Weight of the world-Blue October
Long Night alone: Something in the way-Nirvana
Death Scene: Pieces-Sum 41
Closing credits: Organization XIII (piano), You can't always get what you want (Rolling Stones) and Through her eyes (Dream theater)

And that kids is life