The time

When God made time he made enough of it-Celtic saying

How often have I found myself saying "oh if only I had more time" or "I did n't have enough time for this."? So many times I can remember saying that about a paper, a phone call i need to make or a form to fill out and being completely frustrated at myself. Yet it happens more than I care to admit in fact and each time I am simply in all at my own stupidity and lack of motivation at times. So now I address another area of lack of motivation and time management.

How often have I, taken God and said "I just don't have time for you" and put him on a shelf? how long have i taken the gift of His son and said "I can mess with this later"? Too many times. But then I read a poem I found and there were parts that struck a chord. COnsider these verses from the poem:

All day long I had no time To spread a word of cheer. No time to speak of Christ to friends, They’d laugh at me I’d fear.

and

No time to give to souls in need But at last the time, the time to die. I went before the Lord, I came, I stood with downcast eyes. For in his hands God held a book; It was the book of life. God looked into his book and said ‘Your name I cannot find. I once was going to write it down… But never found the time’

The time we have, its enough. All I have ever heard about living is plan like you'll live forever and live like you'll die tomorrow. In some ways this can be a selfish way of thinking since I could live anyway I want to and its all for the sake of living like you'll die the next day but mine is different. it's living for Christ as if you'll die tomorrow. Tomorrow is never guarantee'd. I can die now as I am writing this or 50 years from now or anywhere in between. What will you do with the time? What are you living for with that time? Are you living for God or for yourself?

I think of all that I have done or rather the lack thereof. The times I was afraid or passed up an opportunity to do something, say something to someone about God. I feel ashamed because right now despite the life i live I feel as if i've done nothing for God. Done nothing for His kingdom that is at hand. I want to tell people, I want to scream it form the roof tops and yet I have not. But i want to. I want to. All i can do is be mindful of what I say and do and the time I use as well. Tic tok the clock is ticking and the sand is running out.