Change

So I decided I really have to take initiative and discipline myself a lot better with managing my time and journaling/writing more. I feel as though a lot of my thoughts are scattered about and that's because I'm just not taking my time to sit down and put them into order. My habits are sporadic and bad to say the least and usually lead me to making ill choices in my day. I spend waaaaaaay too much time on this stupid machine and with tumblr (a site that consumes your brain cells and I do hardly any actual writing on) an dust become complacent and lazy. Well no more. I am going to star living, and enjoying life! I find myself bored because I have confined my interests and behavior with this machine instead of outside it.

What happened to me reading books that wrapped their grip around me? What happened to me spending actual time in my Bible? Man I gotta fix myself! I've been poisoning myself all along! Been vegetating to this machine for far too long. I gotta spend my time away. Ugh it's a long road and it's laaame. But I gotta do it. i don't much like myself. There's a lot of me that I dislike in fact. Sure there are good parts but they're overshadowed by everything that's wrong. So here's to discipline and getting taught all over again. Wish me luck, throw down some prayers.