RESPONSIBILITY

Ah responsibility, my arch-nemesis. I've struggled with being a responsible person my entire life. I remember the after school lectures in elementary school on my way home with my mother about "taking responsibility for your work and getting the things done you need to get done". This is probably the most significant moment in my life where I can say she was definitely right. I DO need to take responsibility. Recent events in life pushed me to just being burnt out, at least that is what I tell myself but I just feel so...unmotivated. That's definitely led to my current troubles and I will solve them it's just stressful and I wish I wasn't the type of person who procrastinated and messed up like this so much. 

But I take that path because, to me, it's the least resistance. It's so easy to let the work pile up, the work goes undone and lets things get worse and worse. It stares me in front of my dumb face and I let it win! It's embarrassing. I don't want to be embarrassed anymore. I want to be better. I WILL be better. 

-Ben Franklin