Saturday, November 12, 2011

If only they'd look closer

The theme of this weekend seems to be people assuming they know me. For instance my older sister seems to believe she knows the reasoning behind certain things about me. Why i do not have a job, why I do not have my license and why I am not doing well in school. Her main theory being my mother simply hasn't pushed me enough, or helped me strive to better myself. Then there is my dad, who when he and my get into fights, thinks I am simply siding with my mother because of all the things she has done for me (i.e. buy me things). He claims I discriminate against him due to this.

A little background here. My dad is sick. He many years ago had to have an emergency brain operation due to a blood clot in his brain and afterwards it left him paralyzed. So my dad was there but we never did things together like father and son do. My sister is significantly older (as is all my siblings as I am adopted) and she was already married when I came along (though since then she has divorced and remarried) so she never really spent time with me. Neither of them really do at all. I mean my dad can't so it's understandable and all but my sister never got to know me for me.

Both of them have this belief of a certain aspect and part of me but neither of them have gone to actually asked me why. Why I do not have a job, why i do not have a car and such. They don't know the real me and honestly its annoying they make these claims about me. I have my reasons for a lot of things and the fact they have no respect but to assume things about me instead of asking is hurtful. All I can do is pray for peace in m soul and to tame my tongue and watch what I say. It's a real mess and I hope it solved soon because it is causing nothing but trouble.

I think the worst part of it all is both of them in their own way blame my mother for something. Neither of them know what she has to go through, what pain she has to feel, and the responsibilities she has.

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