Christmas Lights

So yeah it's finally happening. Those dreaded feeling are being dragged up as the fall season goes on and winter fast approaches. Ha ha ha I should have known it was inevitable as the thoughts creep up about, well, cuddling. I have no idea why but I associate winter with romance for some reason. I'm pretty sure it has to do with when I had a gf in high school one time and just, the feeling of giving her a gift and listening to blink 182 (I know I'm sappy) and just spending time together.

And just...how it's cold and you keep each other cold by cuddling up close and I don't know i just want that warmth and closeness. The feeling of romance and just yeah. I know there is God and nothing honestly compares to the feeling of closeness to Him but i do like feeling another person to next to me too. Ha ha I guess I am just a hopeless romantic. So I think I'll stick with pillow cuddling for now but I at least have books to keep me company and I think I will be buying new tea this month to enjoy during the cold days and nights so I suppose not all is so bad. :)