A response of sorts

Why be pro-life? I mean, do you know what hyperemesis gravidarum, pre-eclampsia, and ectopic pregnancies are? Do you know how physically hellish pregnancy can be for a woman? Do you know all of the different ways that pregnancy can cause mental and emotional distress to a woman? Do you know how emotionally scarring it can be to give a child up for adoption? Or do you just not care about any of that, which proves that your views on this issue are incredibly hateful?

No I do not know how hellish a pregnancy for a woman can be. I do not know of any of the way a pregnancy can be scarring for a woman whether it is physical or mental. But thank you for raising that awareness because honestly I can say that every woman should know of the dangers and issues that can occur in pregnancy and that to be quite honest not to begin a life if at some point they feel they need to terminate it. I do care about all that but I do also care for the child, the human that is growing within. I will never know of what a woman must go through but i do believe in giving every human the opportunity to live. How is it that I am hateful? Do I want to see anyone suffer no, but what is it when to stop a persons suffering you have to kill another person? I would like to see abortion be outlawed sure, but i know even then people would still go do it and what i want is to raise awareness, that what is growing inside of a woman is human and to never call it only a potential human or lump of cells. As much as the woman is human so is the child within. This is a miracle of life. Also I myself am adopted. Assuming you got to my profile through the blog post i wrote you'll note that they single out children that would be a burden to families and society. I was 3 months premature, weighed two pounds and 7 ounces and this was because my mother drank and took drugs while I was in the womb. By those peoples standards, I would have been viewed as a burden to society and t would have been a benefit had I been killed.

On my other blog, tumblr, I received this as a message from a person who obviously did not share my views on the post i made about abortion, my response ot it being in italics. This person does bring up a good point thought about some of the issues a woman may go through during pregnancy. These things aren't exactly discussed (maybe they are and due to me being a man, single and without a child I do not know any of it) and I feel it is something that should be brought up more often and that is the dangers, conditions, and issues that do go along with pregnancy (hyperemesis gravidarum is severe morning sickness, pre-eclampsia is hypertension occuring in pregnancy and ectopic pregnancies is when the embryo attaches itself outside the uterus. I googled these for quick terms and further research is needed/suggested).

I feel perhaps if women understand more and more about their bodies during this time, the risks and such maybe perhaps that might curb anyone who during the difficult time their bodies might go through, into thinking that killing the child would be an only option. Granted, I do not know if there are predetection screening for any issues in pregnancy that can be seen coming off form afar but I feel any and all tests should be done. I also believe that there should be more and mroe discussion about the risks in an abortion as well. If more women understood what was going on during the procedure and the after effects of it maybe that might have them reconsider their options.

This is a quick write more so about the ideas the above person has given me about my response to the issue of abortion. i want to make it known, more and more that the child inside is a living human and not a blob of potential human. There is a bigger issue here as well with abortion as it crosses boundaries of moral, political and ethical debates and would require much more research but what I truly want is for the child to be recognized for what it is: a human life.

Being Human

http://www.theblaze.com/stories/ethicists-argue-in-favor-of-after-birth-abortions-as-newborns-are-not-persons/

First and foremost please read the above article, and after you have come to terms with losing faith in humanity, you can read the rest of this important rant. I first would like to thank Mackenzie Mulligan for posting about this originally and you should really go and read what a man who can truly write about this better than I can say. You may do so here:

http://imperfectfornow.blogspot.com/2012/03/ethical-infanticide.html

Yes i know rather a lot of clicking this time around isn't it but it is not in vain. No onward, I request that any questions, comments, challenges to a fight of pistols, or mistakes and issues be addressed to me and welcome any and all of these as long as you are willing to be respectful and intellectual. Thank you.

How much is a human worth? Where does his/her worth come from? Is it from the contributions to society? Is it the ability to function? Perhaps it is the strength he puts into himself, his family, friends or any number of things that drives his passion? What makes a human, well, human? Why are questions such as this needing to be asked when most (assumingly) would point to any breathing person and call them human and that "all men are created equal? Because of this article.

Because this article wants you to know that these two ethicists are believing that something known as after-birth-abortion should be legal. They argue that a child (for instance they say with down syndrome) who would be a burden on society, and on the family should be aborted. They do not use the term infanticide due to the fact that they are no more than a fetus or a lump of cells ot them and carry nothing more than potential to be a person. Many anti-abortionists talk about the "sanctity of life" and I had always thought I understood what that mean but now it takes on a different from of the sanctity of life.

I've always been against abortion but to be honest I never sat down and really thought about it, put it into something more, I gues syou could say to truly humanizie what it means. Here is a life, growing inside of a woman and they want to kill it. How is it possible that people can point to a seed in dirt and say "this is alive!" and yet when it comes to a child inside of a woman it is no more than a clump of cells, not even human or is given the closest thing to human by being called potential? We have taken the Lord's own creation and turned it into nothing!!

Here' it is people! "All men are created equal" is dead! Because obviously whatever that meant then when they said "created" does not obviously mean the same thing anymore!!

Psalms 139:13-14

13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Dear goodness what have we humans done? We take our own selves and lessen it down to just a clump of cells? How terrifying is it that I am worth nothing more than a clump of cells. Is that where the justification for atrocities comes from? Of forcing children to be slaves, adults to be slaves, or even abuse people because their skin is a different color.

I want you, I beg you to tell people about this, to let them know. Because my gosh if there is one thing we should be thinking about it's the human worth going down the toilet. We are all created equal but apparently we all aren't worth the same. Not when a persons life is weighed on how much they'll be worth to society and whether or not they'd be a burden.

Dreams are made winding

I had an...amazing dream last night. I cannot describe it but amazing has to be the only word I can use to describe it. My goodness. I n my dream last night there were no more privacy setting online. Suddenly every site I visited, every picture I pulled up, everything I downloaded and even looked at online was made known to...everyone. I remember trying to hide things, trying to delete here and there but nothing worked, I was on display to the world. No more hiding, no more masks and just, my goodness how exposed I felt.

what if I did not have control over the content of my page?
-Instead I craft my digital life as I want it known
what if my pictures had me at my worst moments?
-Instead I am the one in front and behind the camera
what if my wall was my heart externalized for the world to see?
-Instead I post trivialities, hide deficiencies, and avoid eternal verities
what if my words spoken in secret or under-breath could not hide in this virtual world?
what if my you saw a list of my enemies?
what if my list of friends, were only those I treated as friends?

what if, my what ifs, were not what ifs?

That's an old quote I had received from a friend a while back about facebook and such and it's sort of floated around on my computer in a draft of quotes for a while, just collecting dust. Until i remembered it after waking up this morning form that dream. I just...I've done things. And I think after last night this dream was a reminder of those things. Of what I am not supposed to be, of what I am not anymore. I guess this was a wake up call reminding me and just I don;t know sort of warning me too. I dunno. That's my thoughts this morning after many cups of tea.

I guess this is growing up

So yeah I have been having a fun week of being sick! Yay! Not. It is no fun and i hate it. Well I came to realize something. I am not a young spring chicken anymore. I need to start taking care of my health and stop being such a idiot. I am sick because I thought it would be a rather great idea to go out for a walk in the rain. Needless to say that idea backfired on me and I am now in this current state. Also I should really at some point start considering, so I am not put into this pathetic state any longer, downing vitamin c tablets like they'll go out of business if I don't. I seriously probably don't get enough vitamin c so sucking down oranges or pills will hopefully help keep me form ever getting this bad again.

I also realized that as an adult it is up to you and you alone to be responsible for your health. Whether that is going out and getting your own meds, to seriously watching what you do to your body and what you put it through. So this sickness has me reconsidering what I do to my body and how after this I will hopefully turn around and be smarter about taking care of myself.

With some time

I am so sick and tired fo wanting romance and wanting somebody! Its frustrating. I constantly wish someone would drop form the sky and boom we would have our own quirky romance story. But it's not like that. It can;t be like that. In a relationship its not supposed to be about what you want but you're supposed to be there for the other person. I want to feel like I am wanted, like someone cares but its not supposed to be about how I feel.

I try to compare ad make it more like my relationship with Christ. I deny myself to do God's will, to give everything I am. I'm not supposed to do it for God's gift He gives me, but for God alone and because i love Him. I suppose even in relationships you have deny yourself as much as in your relationship with God. I try and think of this but I don't have the answer. That's why i don't and won't date. I don't have the answers. Not even to the questions of God or about myself. There's a lot in me I need to change before I get involved with someone.

I'm pretty messed up on the inside. I'm fickle, emotionally unstable, depressed, but I know I am better, than I was before and i am getting there slowly and yeah I know I'll get there someday with God's guidance and help. I suppose I need patience (why is that always the underlining message I have to learn) and wait until my turn comes. I have a list of priorities and I suppose if i focus on that list one item at a time I'll get their eventually.

Should've when you could've

So I was just enrolling for me next online courses for the semester when a thought occurred to me. How I wished I was still at my University instead of being kicked out I'd have used my time better. I'd have gotten up early to read my bible more, been involved in more campus things, gone to more lectures and chapels,etc. Then another thought came: why don't I do that now? What's stopping me from waking up early and spending my time with God in His word? What is keeping me from being involved in church functions (though having a car and my license would help but that's not the point) and going out and hearing speakers? Nothing is stopping me but myself.

Seem's I have been hindering myself lately, letting my flesh get the better of me as time goes on and frankly it is annoying. I fee so far, so lazy, so unmotivated. I had a long look at myself last week and I didn't like what I saw, where my true desires lie (that is another post altogether) and just...yeah. I want to change. Honestly, I'd rather be taking steps backwards than just standing here, like an idiot, not doing anything. Because if I a moving backwards at least I can fix it and move forwards. I don't like where I am at right now but I am working towards a goal of going where God wants me to go. I don't want it to be my will or to be here standing doing nothing nay longer. I want to get up and go.