Structural integrity is the ability of an item—either a structural component or a structure consisting of many components—to hold together under a load, including its own weight, without breaking or deforming excessively"
An interesting thought popped into my head thinking about going forward in this new year. I was thinking about all of the changes I wanted to make in myself and how I wanted to grow. The thought frightened me and I thought about how difficult it was going to be and how much work it would take to commit to all of the changes I wanted to make in my own life and grow as a person. Then I thought about prayer and trying to trust God through it and keep me stable. Then boom! The idea for the title struck and here we are!
It's a daunting thing really. Here I am, staring at this colossal wall that I have built of insecurities, fear, negative habits, and so many things I don't like about myself that I want to fix. Originally I wanted to say "I want to patch up this wall" but that won't do at all, will it? No, it's a big job, a lot of work, and you gotta start from the ground up. Tear down the old and begin anew. From it being about myself I want to get better to be a better servant to Christ, not just myself. That's the primary thing. Christ repairing the wall in me, building a new one, a new man. Covering up my weaknesses, fixing my flaws, destroying the bad parts.
I can be new. I can be different. I can do it. Not by my strength but by Christ's. I need to focus and rely on His strength and His will in my life. Not my own. I don't think there's anything wrong with certain parts I want to fix and go on to being better in areas I feel need work in. My laziness, my forgetfulness, my rampant procrastination. I can be different. I can be new again. I can be the man Christ intended me to be. I need Him as my strength, to lift me up and keep me strong. Not to buckle under the weight of life and things I give too much power too. I remember being told that "Being the same in public as you are in private". Well, I want that person to be in Christ and to be strong.
Christ be the center of our lives
Be the place we fix our eyes
Be the center of our lives"- "center" by Charlie Hall
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