A New Vision

With the New year comes a reinvigoration to get up and do something different. We make resolution son changing things for the better like, losing weight, reading more books, connecting with friends more, etc. I am no different as the New Year lit a fire in me to do better and be better. For instance, my health. I got a scare near the end of last year where my doctor wanted me to come in and talk to me about the results of my physical I had. I was nervous, thinking that he may have found something wrong with me or that I was dying. Nothing of the sort luckily, however, my cholesterol was a little bit higher than he liked. So it was off for me to start a new journey: healthier eating.

This was the sort of push I needed and really wanted to be more...adultlike. I find myself often seeing myself as still young and foolish when it comes to basically responsibility and pulling my head out of my butt. I mean at 30 I SHOULD have an idea of what it means to be an adult or rather, how to be better disciplined in being responsible. yeah, no such luck. However, the New Year brought me an invigoration of energy and resolve to push myself forward. With my health, my hygiene, my appearance, finances and most of all: my faith.

I wanted to get back to days that honestly I saw as brighter. I wanted to pray more, read my Bible more, grow deeper in my walk with the Lord and stop standing in shallow waters. I wanted to dive deep and experience, God. Well, easier said than done because I have zero clues what God wants me to do. Now it should be said I'm still working on daily devotions, prayer, and Bible reading. But before that during a New Year service, it seemed everyone had something to say to me as encouragement. My pastor, telling me to quit sitting and messing around and to go full in with my service in the church and a brother telling me that I need to lead. Lead what? Dive into where? I don't know!

Okay, not the total truth I have...ideas. I could lead a Bible Study but there's already one just up the street from me so not here but maybe take over or help teach one? I'd also like to try and lead a ministry? Get better connected? I don't know and it's frustrating! Gotta just focus and try and discern everything. Best bet is to pray about and seek God for the answer. Oh and patiently waiting. Man I hate patience.