unforgettable moments

So here i am. I feel many emotions as I sit here. I feel anger, sadness, betrayal, disgust, hurt and others I cannot even describe. Why? Why does a man feel any of these things? Because of a woman. Because, in the end, I was proven right. The good guy doesn't win, he dies, full of regrets. Oh he saved the world but at what cost? He lies there, no one to help him up, after he helped so many. Just lying there. So here I am, lying here, as everyone passes me by. And you don't care. I was used, again, it seems. There things, my brain and my heart, they have failed me. Yet I do not know what to do to/with them.

So here I am. After my times of helping you. After standing with you, hearing you cry, holding you, offering advice and being there for you, I am discarded. Was it all for nothing?! I guess so. But you showed me what is real. When I offered an answer that did not fit into your delusion of reality, when I tried to help, what's worse when I tried to show you how beautiful you really are you shove me away.

Well no more. You want to only talk about school, the weather and how we are doing? Fine by me. We'll go back to the way things were before you liked him. Best part? My feeling are dead. What did they bring in the end? Nothing. Its just my fault for caring too much. Even now does it even cross your mind if you've hurt me or not? I bet not. But hey, that's life. I'll still be there of course, and will help you too. But let's make it clear. As i sit here, writing this. I. DON'T. CARE.