I have been an emotional mess lately. A lot of issues has risen and its making me doubt my decisions, myself, and most of all doubt where everything is going. It is absolutely ridiculous. i was fine and dandy up until this last weekend. This last weekend of suck! So my brother had a bad reaction to some medication. Now it was nothing serious it just made him lose sleep and thus made his anxiety go up. Well the doctor finally took him off of it and gave him sleeping meds and anxiety meds. Sounds peach right? Wrong. Now the only reason he does not sleep is because he is keeping himself awake from worrying about every little thing. No matter what it is he'll worry about it and when we try and bring him out of this worry stage he finds something in our words and worries about that too! I am sorry I know I should be more considerate to my brother but his worrying is messing with my mother and she already doesn't have perfect health so he is making her stress and worry and just gah!
I am sorry I guess I just need to rant. Its just man it gives me worries too because he either snaps out of it and sleeps and feels better or he doesn't and everyone has to worry and make changes in their schedule and just yeah no, no bueno. Not to mention from his pacing all night long through the house I have had horrible sleep as well so he is dragging the rest of us with him and just ugh! I see no real reason why this should be happening. God, I need a reason, I need to see why this is happening. So troublesome. I suppose the only way to combat this is sleep earlier but the lame part is I have woken up so early it just feels useless. God, please, lets see the end of this soon or your will and reason for it. Preferably before I go insane. Thank you.
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