We've Come To It At Last

The end of the year 2010. I sit here at my desk and i think of the things that have happened. The experiences, painful, joyous, the good times and bad, and all others you can think of. The things which changed us so thoroughly that we are not the same person we were when this year began. No, I think we've all changed. Parts of us have been revitalized, others have died, and new parts have bloomed but one thing is certain we've all grown up one way or another in this year. Now we come to a new year, taking what we've learned and not applying it only to the year ahead but also to our lives from when we learn it to the end of the life we live. It is not only for that moment but for every moment after that we take that.

I have grown more this year and frankly its pretty scary. Suddenly the child in me is growing up and he is scared out of his mind. For now comes the responsibility of duty, of knowing what yo should and should not do. There is no more blaming it on being a teenager or a young adult. Responsibility starts now. I am becoming a man now and I have been forced to start seeing what is in front of me as I take each step. I was looking to the horizon but now no longer for I take it one step at a time going each mile and each distance. Where does it lead? I wish I knew, but God knows so that is the best person to know.

I have been given the push to grow, the tools have been given to me. Either I squander them here, in the ground or spring up, mighty and tall. The winter is ending and a new year is beginning. When Spring comes, what will you look like? A budding sapling, or a empty clump of dirt? Will this year be different for you with change or become routine and the same? Will your is eup or fall?

A lot of things happened to me this year, most I shared here, some I did not. I have grown form these and as I write this I try and think of some good things but I can't so that is one thing I'll do this year. Write down and remember all of the good times I had. Remember all of the blessings, of the family time of all God's given me. That is one of many things i have taken form this year. So take a moment and write down everything that you learned this year and keep it with you, always somewhere to look at. So maybe it could become lodged in our heads and we'd remember and know what the year before held for us and what life is giving us now. Plus sometimes we need reminders of the times we had to take a crash course through some things. It happens to all of us.

There are a lot of things i want to write about what happened to me personally but I feel that can wait for the right time to mention or say and hey, most of it is in my blog so it gives you a reason to read the writings of a mad man and a fellow actor on the stage of life. So I hope everyone who reads this, if even in passing and maybe not even at all in reading it, has a wonderful and blessed New Year's. I hope and pray for you all that it is a good one.

" Down an unknown road
To embrace my fate
Though the road may wander
It will lead me to you
And a thousand years
Would be worth the wait
It may take a lifetime
But somehow I'll see it through"

-"Go the distance"- Michael Bolton

Chapter 2010: The end