Life. It happens. Full of risings and fallings, plot twists and chapter endings. Its a mess, but its our mess. In my life there is uncertainty. I am uncertain of what will happen in the future. WIll I ever graduate? WIll I ever get my degree, then a master's then a wife? WIll I ever meet the girl of my dreams? Trivial things such as those. They plague my mind now, every night before bed, when I wake up, when I am eating. ABout the only solace is blocking out the little voices with m Ipod. It happens, these things plague us all.
So yes, recently my mind has been swimming with questions and no answers. Life has been mixing signals with me again and I dislike it. A lot. Been up and down and all around. I just wish it would stop long enough to talk to me and help me figure out everything. Just takes time is all. I am just so tired and want to sleep it all away for just a little while longer. But it doesn't stop for me does it? Nope not for anyone so I power forward. Someday it'll all be okay.
Just have to wait it all out because as I go along I'll find the answers God will give me. God feels so far away and I feel so small. Like a tossed little speck in an ocean. It sucks. But I've written about that before and I ask myself, "Why am I afraid?"
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