An Annoyance

So my brother walks into my room and proceeds to bombard me with a whole bunch of "what if's..." Like what would have happened if my mother had gotten a better lawyer years ago after my Dad got sick or what would have happened if they rented out their old house. See, I hear this all the time and while mildly annoying, its not what I had a problem with. No, what I had a problem with was my brother brushing off the fact that my mother would never had to have watched foster children and thus I would never have been here, adopted.

You see they do this. They don't think before they speak. WHen my mother is upset with my dad and their arguing she says things like "I'm sorry you have to be in this home, I should have let you go on to a better home." Really? Seriously? There is no guarantee I would have gone to a "better home" or if I would have ended up just being bounced around the system. Heck I could be in jail, doing drugs or worse dead right now, and even worst than that I could have ended up not knowing Christ!

It hurts and infuriates me when they say this and honestly the next time they bring it up I am just going to let them have it about how I feel because I am sick and tired of this. PLus, honestly, looking back and wishing and complaining bout how things are is stupid. What good will any of that do? Just makes you depressed and wishful but none of that is any good. Just bothers me they always do this. Why can't they be happy with what they have? I mean sure, it's not wrong to want more, or to change things but to constantly talk about it and do nothing is just ridiculous. I don't know. Just me ranting I guess.