Wrote this a few weeks ago:
So this morning as i was on a walk, feeling sorry for myself as i am prone to doing, i found my mind wandering. The morning reminded me of a day where when i was in school i might be waking up, heading off to chapel or breakfast, then class and seeing friends and it just reminded me of the past. Then the voices came.
You’re a failure
You got kicked out
They graduated and got on with their lives and where are you at?
The same thoughts that have plagued me for so long. But then another voice popped up saying “you do realize you couldn’t stay there forever right? ". That’s when it hit me. The realization. I COULDN’T stay at college or with my friends there forever. We have our lives, our purposes, goals and such. Even if i had graduated with them i think it would have been the same. I’d have still missed them and the old times.
It’s the past. And I’ve spent too much time dwelling on it. It hasn’t motivated me and I’ve barely learned from it. Well it’s about time I did. So i guess this is growing up?
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