I have been crucified with Christ, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.
-GALATIANS 2:20
Beforehand i talked about comparison being the thief of joy and about living my life by Christ and the situations in it. I never imagined I'd be tying these two together. Anyways, I have been comparing my life by my own standards. Putting side by side others lives and imagining how my life SHOULD be by my own standards. Because I tried laying down the standards of my life by my own will, I was never satisfied by how things turned out. I tried living life by what I thought was best but hadn't been living my life by what God KNEW was best.
Let me tell you it is utterly frustrating to me, as a human, to try and even conceive that I don't know what's best for myself. In all honesty it is rooted in my arrogance and pride that is slowly being revealed to me by God. I mean man God reveals a bit to em about life and suddenly I'm thinking that I'm going to be the next Billy Graham or something! I start tweaking God's plan with some of my own desires and wants. I mean who doesn't know me better than myself right? Oh wait, God does.
In the end what it comes down to is denial. Denying myself, my wants, my desires. I gotta change and the only way to do that is to move closer to God. To die to all those desires, my wants, my strengths and accept that the only strength I have and need is Jesus.
"When my life disagrees with the Word of God, I want to say, 'This Word is true, and I must change.'"
-Joshua Harris
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