They say comparison is the thief of joy. Oh how true I have learned this statement is. My life hasn't exactly turned out the way I planned it. I got kicked out of school, I'm still living at home and haven't made any headway in my plans. This obviously depresses me. I often look at the adventures and lives my friends have and I yearn to be free like that. It was me thinking of this one day that brought me to a discovery: I've been down and out lately because I've been comparing my life to others.
Heck, I'll admit it, I've been COVETING and LUSTING after the lives of others around me. I've rarely been content with life as of late. I've spent more time WISHING for things to happen or to do something than enjoying what I do have. I went from "God will show me what comes next" to "man I gotta get out of here and get on with my life and do or y". I went from wanting what God had for me to wanting ANYTHING that was out there for me.
All of this has been a poison to me, leading me to try and solve things for myself and pursue empty things. Now it's not wrong to desire BETTER things, but I've just wanted less responsibility, more fun and great adventures. Heck, how do I even know the lives of those around me? It looks easy but that's me looking through a pinhole instead of through the entire scope of their lives. Maybe some of them think "boy I wish I had it easy like Robert!".
Has God got something for me? Yes, he does. Sadly i suffer form impatience. I have grown impatient and so i go looking around instead of looking to God and what he has. I haven't appreciated what he's given me either. I've taken it for granted and it took me a long time to figure it out.
At this point my best bet is to wait on God and for what he has. Are there some things I want i can go and do? Sure, that's on me to get off my butt and do it though. Comparing my life to others hasn't gotten me anywhere except to the land of "you're an idiot for not realizing it sooner Robert".
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