Days Gone Bye

After a session of sad songs and old blog posts I decided the best course of action would be to obviously go through my picture album on my computer. Because why not right? Extra stab in the heart! Seeing all the peoples faces who saw everyday in high school was an odd thing. How different are those people now! Where they went, the paths they chose to pursue, the people they became and the live they lead today. Such an odd thing. Ghosts, that what they are. Because none of those people, in a way, are alive anymore. They turned into different people. Like a snake skin they grew and shed off their old selves. Their mannerisms changed along with their convictions, ideals, philosophies on life and even tastes in different things. Even a friend who I follow on here (who hasn't posted in three years) is a different person than who they were then! Even myself from my writings here, the pictures I am in, are all different and old. Even I am dead. But parts of me aren't, the ones I want to change. I remember a verse that says "put away childish things" and I somewhat understand more so now what it meant. I've changed and there needs to be more changes. I've grown but somewhere along the way I stopped or impeded my growth and I have to get back on track to fixing that.

Just so weird to see those faces and compare them to today. I miss them I do, I honestly do. But there has to be an understanding: they're not coming back. No matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I wish they're gone. But I can enjoy the memories of them and the nostalgia so long as I am not sucked into them and stuck there. This is a first step in understanding. This is the first step in growing. Thank you to the people of the past. But that's where you are, the past. I have to leave you there. It hurts, my God how it hurts. But this I must do. Thank you all for the memories. I shall always cherish them.