There are things I hate about myself. I suppose everybody does but only I can do anything about my things. My apathy, my laziness, my lack of energy to get up and do something and self-discipline. The things that I believe makes someone an adult. The things I know I stunted the growth of in me. But these things I hate, I want to change about myself for the better. The only question is: how? How do I let go of these traits I despise and that have led me to, well, nowhere.
Whenever I ask myself how to fix myself, I feel as though it's a lost cause. Like an old house in such bad shape it isn't worth fixing. Am I worth fixing? What will come out of fixing those things I hate? Reliability, trust, self-respect. Those are some sweet sounding words but...i dunno is it worth it? I can try to work on them and see. See, if there is any happiness or happier feelings at the end of that road.
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