Happy Anniversary to me...

This was originally written on the 21 of June, which is the anniversary of my break up with my girlfriend. Now see we were only together 6 months but knew each other for 4 years so were extremely close already. IN fact I could say that she was the only girl I ever loved that I was in a relationship with and in fact the only one I never said I love you to. Honestly, it still hurts but a heck of a lot less as I have let a lot go recently and slowly forgiving her and letting the blame game end and everything. It still hurts and you may ask me why I haven't tried getting back with her if it hurts so much and if I still love her right? Well when we had broken up she was in Alaska and while there she took a complete turn in personality. So much that the person i love and dated was gone and replaced with someone I couldn't be with due to my value and convictions. So that can and could never be fulfilled. In all honesty I am happy that I was not as depressed on this day as I thought I would be. It means i have moved on and healing better than I thought.