To be or not to be

That is the question. No I am not talking about suicide. This is in reference to something else.: my parents. honestly i have always thought that my parents way of parenting and their relationship was the way its supposed to be because hey we learn form our parents right? Wrong. I have almost without a shadow of a doubt come to the conclusion that i want to be nothing like my parents. My parents relationship is one that has so many regrets in it: being married too early, financial mistakes, health issues, loss of respect and love. So many things wrong even if they are still married I fear that is out of Biblical reasoning than choice. It sucks and i have told a close friend of mine remind me that if I start acting like that to slap some sense into me. I just cannot see their marriage as something I'd want and I am surprised I'm not turned off to marriage completely. But I suppose its a good thing. My friends mother told me that we always want to default to the way our parents parented. But we have to blaze our own trail and figure out how to do it our way for ourselves with some notes from our parents. But this is just a rant. I am nowhere near ready to have kids for a while so no worries for now.