Forgotten Prayer List

If you think God is happy that you’re demeaning Osteen’s and Furtick’s ministry instead of praying for them…

But for real tho, if we prayed for Osteen and Hinn as much as we criticized them, how much better off would they be?

They’d probably rapture with all the glory our prayers might give them.

Because we ridicule them a lot.

A lot. 

The other day a brother in Christ posted this on his blog and boy, let me tell you, I was CONVICTED (read that in the voice from Halo whenever there is a double kill for emphasis) by those words. I won't lie, I've made plenty of jokes about Joel Osteen and some other pastors who are more often than not dislike in the Christian community for their views on certain things. I was convicted because it never passed my mind to pray for them. I never honestly felt it was needed because they're pastors and handle their own things with God right? But man considering there are jerks like me out there I realized they need prayer. Now that doesn't mean I don't have a problem with some of their preaching and theology, in some cases form things they've said I do but that isn't the point here. The point here is that in seeing that, instead of ridiculing, and throwing around the big scary H word of heretic, we should pray for them. 

No different than us praying for our enemies. In fact heck pray for everyone. Those who persecute you, love you, lie to you , are great friends and terrible ex's and so on and so forth. Just pray for them. pray for the Lord to work in their lives and intercede. 

Been Gone For So Long

It's been a long while since I posted. I've got another blog on tumblr I use though that is more me reblogging pictures and such than me writing. Blogger will be my true love though because I've missed writing and believing someone might actually read what i write and even if they do not its an archive of my adventures and my struggles. Much like the one I will be writing about here.

I'm writing here now because I just...feel so far from God. I've felt I've known for a while what it meant to be a Christian. What i had to do, what I had to believe, what i had to strive to pray for and so on and so forth. But now I feel so far away. Have I been doing the whole religious thing? have I allowed it to become a set of rules and regulations instead of a transforming relationship? Yeah I think so. I just stopped seeing it as God involved in my life and more as myself involved like it's some self help book instructions as opposed to "hey this is literally the word of God!". And because of that I have failed time and time again.

I suppose its good I have come to this realization. The year is fast ending and this is the sort of time to take stock in everything. In what the year has held for myself in my life. The changes, whether good or bad and all that has happened. Getting all of this off my chest might really help me but I know where the true answers lie it's just my lazy, sinful, unmotivated human nature to neglect what I know is good. That's one thing I do hate about myself that i want to change. A lot has happened and in the coming weeks I will write about it in no doubt what will be my end of the year post.

I just need to spend more time with God. I'm alone a lot of the time anymore. Family and home issues require me to stay close and along with my friends having busy lives between work and relationships it does not give me a lot of human interaction besides my family. So the only other interaction is at church and again due to home responsibilities I cannot spend as much time at church as I hope and want. if I cannot then shouldn't I be spending the time I do have here in something constructive?  i should be reading and meditating daily upon the word of God. But I don't thought I should. i dunno. it is something i need ot work on. not by my own strength but by God's.

I created this blog to catalog my journey and that's what I plan to do. So I'm back now hopefully to regularly posting and the journey continues...

Political richness

I dislike talking about politics. Usually it leads to fights, mean spirited debates, name calling and disrespect when discussed (especially online) and so i avoid it. But there was something that someone posted that made me have to ask a question. A person I follow had posted this statement:

Wanna know why Mass has such great education?
Because Mass is filled with rich kids.

See now I have never been to Massachusetts so i don't know what it is like there but it made me wonder about something. Does the amount of money you have directly affect your child's education? 

Happy (late) Fourth of July!!

I hope everyone had a safe and wonderful day as we celebrated not only the birth of our country but also the men and women who fight and have fought for our freedom. Thank you.

Celebrations!!

There should be trumpets! There should be singing, joy and happiness! Yes there should be a great commotion!! Today, on this day, June 10, 2012, my dear friends kellen and Levi, joined together as man and wife and I was bestowed the honor to see it. I wish for nothing but the best for them and their life. May God bless you both and be the ever center and foundation of your marriage. Peace and blessings to you both! 

RANT RANT RANT

It has been forever in a day since i last posted, and i apologize for that. I have been posting/abusing tumblr lately and so it has swallowed a great deal of my time but I will resume posting here quite soon. It's funny because this post is actually a post about tumblr. So today while i was looking through people's updates, I ran across a picture of Korra, form the new Avatar:the last airbender series. Now for those of you who do not know, Korra is a young woman who has dark tone skin (as seen below) and as such apparently with some of the fan base she resonates a connection, which is completely and totally fine to be honest there is nothing wrong with that. I will tell you with what is wrong with what I saw earlier today.

Okay so I am going to post the photo that has started this sort of racial argument in question and then the comments about the image right below it. I have edited out the curse words because sadly they were frequent to be used (because if you really want to get your point across you have to curse.) and with that we begin.

First I want to establish something. For one, this is fan art. Say it with me now, FAN art. This is a persons own rendering of Korra, based off of a desire they had to draw her this way. I thought art was supposed to be freeing, a part of expression that was supposed to be deep? I didn't know that if my rendering of a fictitious character offended someone because i changed the skin tone slightly I would be put down.

And that is exactly what happens to a person (who happens to be white) in the comments that were attached to the picture. That person was tore down for their views on the image and the part that was focused on was that this person is white. The person makes a good point in dealing with the issue that the artist may not be very well versed in skin tones and his comment even resonates with an issue he has with the facial features which may be over caucasian. But despite this and even putting it in a respectful manner this person was tore down.

I know and understand that not everyone will agree with my own opinion and not with theirs or anyone else's. But the main aspect here is being respectful. If you have an issue what is wrong with just talking to the artist? And if someone doesn't agree you do not have to tell them names, insult their race or curse them out. it is the internet. Chill. But i know I will probably receive some hate from writing this and that is fine, you do not have to agree but if you will respond please be respectful and I will give the same courtesy.

Also just to be clear I love the Last Airbender series. I watched it with friends while I was at college and when I heard it was returning my thoughts never went to the color of Korra's skin or that she was a woman or anything. All that mattered was a show I had enjoyed was returning and I was excited to watch it. But in moments like these, when a person cannot even create a piece of art that they decided to do without getting crap form the fanbase makes me regret being a fan. It is a cartoon show, do not read more into it than what is necessary.

My main point, and concern if you decided TL;DR is that when it comes to FAN art, race, design, anything should not matter. it is your art. There will be people who like it, and those who do not. Keep on striving artists. I also wanted to give an example of a nice person who did comment on the image so you can see there are nice people on the internet and therefore hope.

Why don't you get a job?!

So recently I had a reality check when I went out with some friends the other night. I need a job. I actually had to have a friend pay for my meal (a little more than half) and I was actually embarrassed. I live off of the money I get a month for helping my mother here at home (it is 100 dollars and 90 after tithing) and I get that only once a month. Oh yeah I am living the life. It's harder now because I have to pay y brother back and find a wedding gift for two of my great friends who will be getting married next month (not that I mind buying them a gift) along with some other expenses. Crap is expensive yo! Its insane and I need a job.

The issue is: I do not want to work at a fast food place. I worked the cafeteria at my college and I hated it. i worked on 4 hours a week but still I dreaded those 4 hours. It sucked but I needed the job. I also worked catering and that provided a better environment and I miss it honestly. Better people, cleaner environment and free food to boot! :D But sadly I no longer have either of those jobs and working in the cafeteria left a bitter taste in my mouth and I disliked it greatly and really don't want to go back. So now it comes down to me finding a job I like that would not require a license (as I do not have one) and is close to home as there are still responsibilities here.

It is difficult but I feel that if I step out there, God will show me the way to a good job that'll help me out with money so I can help here at home more and such. Just one of those fuuun things of growing up. Along with me deciding whether or not I finish my degree at my school or online. Oh the fun of decisions. YAY.

I won't pay, I won't pay ya, no way
na-na, Why don't you get a job?-"Why don't you get a job" The Offspring

A response of sorts

Why be pro-life? I mean, do you know what hyperemesis gravidarum, pre-eclampsia, and ectopic pregnancies are? Do you know how physically hellish pregnancy can be for a woman? Do you know all of the different ways that pregnancy can cause mental and emotional distress to a woman? Do you know how emotionally scarring it can be to give a child up for adoption? Or do you just not care about any of that, which proves that your views on this issue are incredibly hateful?

No I do not know how hellish a pregnancy for a woman can be. I do not know of any of the way a pregnancy can be scarring for a woman whether it is physical or mental. But thank you for raising that awareness because honestly I can say that every woman should know of the dangers and issues that can occur in pregnancy and that to be quite honest not to begin a life if at some point they feel they need to terminate it. I do care about all that but I do also care for the child, the human that is growing within. I will never know of what a woman must go through but i do believe in giving every human the opportunity to live. How is it that I am hateful? Do I want to see anyone suffer no, but what is it when to stop a persons suffering you have to kill another person? I would like to see abortion be outlawed sure, but i know even then people would still go do it and what i want is to raise awareness, that what is growing inside of a woman is human and to never call it only a potential human or lump of cells. As much as the woman is human so is the child within. This is a miracle of life. Also I myself am adopted. Assuming you got to my profile through the blog post i wrote you'll note that they single out children that would be a burden to families and society. I was 3 months premature, weighed two pounds and 7 ounces and this was because my mother drank and took drugs while I was in the womb. By those peoples standards, I would have been viewed as a burden to society and t would have been a benefit had I been killed.

On my other blog, tumblr, I received this as a message from a person who obviously did not share my views on the post i made about abortion, my response ot it being in italics. This person does bring up a good point thought about some of the issues a woman may go through during pregnancy. These things aren't exactly discussed (maybe they are and due to me being a man, single and without a child I do not know any of it) and I feel it is something that should be brought up more often and that is the dangers, conditions, and issues that do go along with pregnancy (hyperemesis gravidarum is severe morning sickness, pre-eclampsia is hypertension occuring in pregnancy and ectopic pregnancies is when the embryo attaches itself outside the uterus. I googled these for quick terms and further research is needed/suggested).

I feel perhaps if women understand more and more about their bodies during this time, the risks and such maybe perhaps that might curb anyone who during the difficult time their bodies might go through, into thinking that killing the child would be an only option. Granted, I do not know if there are predetection screening for any issues in pregnancy that can be seen coming off form afar but I feel any and all tests should be done. I also believe that there should be more and mroe discussion about the risks in an abortion as well. If more women understood what was going on during the procedure and the after effects of it maybe that might have them reconsider their options.

This is a quick write more so about the ideas the above person has given me about my response to the issue of abortion. i want to make it known, more and more that the child inside is a living human and not a blob of potential human. There is a bigger issue here as well with abortion as it crosses boundaries of moral, political and ethical debates and would require much more research but what I truly want is for the child to be recognized for what it is: a human life.

Being Human

http://www.theblaze.com/stories/ethicists-argue-in-favor-of-after-birth-abortions-as-newborns-are-not-persons/

First and foremost please read the above article, and after you have come to terms with losing faith in humanity, you can read the rest of this important rant. I first would like to thank Mackenzie Mulligan for posting about this originally and you should really go and read what a man who can truly write about this better than I can say. You may do so here:

http://imperfectfornow.blogspot.com/2012/03/ethical-infanticide.html

Yes i know rather a lot of clicking this time around isn't it but it is not in vain. No onward, I request that any questions, comments, challenges to a fight of pistols, or mistakes and issues be addressed to me and welcome any and all of these as long as you are willing to be respectful and intellectual. Thank you.

How much is a human worth? Where does his/her worth come from? Is it from the contributions to society? Is it the ability to function? Perhaps it is the strength he puts into himself, his family, friends or any number of things that drives his passion? What makes a human, well, human? Why are questions such as this needing to be asked when most (assumingly) would point to any breathing person and call them human and that "all men are created equal? Because of this article.

Because this article wants you to know that these two ethicists are believing that something known as after-birth-abortion should be legal. They argue that a child (for instance they say with down syndrome) who would be a burden on society, and on the family should be aborted. They do not use the term infanticide due to the fact that they are no more than a fetus or a lump of cells ot them and carry nothing more than potential to be a person. Many anti-abortionists talk about the "sanctity of life" and I had always thought I understood what that mean but now it takes on a different from of the sanctity of life.

I've always been against abortion but to be honest I never sat down and really thought about it, put it into something more, I gues syou could say to truly humanizie what it means. Here is a life, growing inside of a woman and they want to kill it. How is it possible that people can point to a seed in dirt and say "this is alive!" and yet when it comes to a child inside of a woman it is no more than a clump of cells, not even human or is given the closest thing to human by being called potential? We have taken the Lord's own creation and turned it into nothing!!

Here' it is people! "All men are created equal" is dead! Because obviously whatever that meant then when they said "created" does not obviously mean the same thing anymore!!

Psalms 139:13-14

13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Dear goodness what have we humans done? We take our own selves and lessen it down to just a clump of cells? How terrifying is it that I am worth nothing more than a clump of cells. Is that where the justification for atrocities comes from? Of forcing children to be slaves, adults to be slaves, or even abuse people because their skin is a different color.

I want you, I beg you to tell people about this, to let them know. Because my gosh if there is one thing we should be thinking about it's the human worth going down the toilet. We are all created equal but apparently we all aren't worth the same. Not when a persons life is weighed on how much they'll be worth to society and whether or not they'd be a burden.

Dreams are made winding

I had an...amazing dream last night. I cannot describe it but amazing has to be the only word I can use to describe it. My goodness. I n my dream last night there were no more privacy setting online. Suddenly every site I visited, every picture I pulled up, everything I downloaded and even looked at online was made known to...everyone. I remember trying to hide things, trying to delete here and there but nothing worked, I was on display to the world. No more hiding, no more masks and just, my goodness how exposed I felt.

what if I did not have control over the content of my page?
-Instead I craft my digital life as I want it known
what if my pictures had me at my worst moments?
-Instead I am the one in front and behind the camera
what if my wall was my heart externalized for the world to see?
-Instead I post trivialities, hide deficiencies, and avoid eternal verities
what if my words spoken in secret or under-breath could not hide in this virtual world?
what if my you saw a list of my enemies?
what if my list of friends, were only those I treated as friends?

what if, my what ifs, were not what ifs?

That's an old quote I had received from a friend a while back about facebook and such and it's sort of floated around on my computer in a draft of quotes for a while, just collecting dust. Until i remembered it after waking up this morning form that dream. I just...I've done things. And I think after last night this dream was a reminder of those things. Of what I am not supposed to be, of what I am not anymore. I guess this was a wake up call reminding me and just I don;t know sort of warning me too. I dunno. That's my thoughts this morning after many cups of tea.

I guess this is growing up

So yeah I have been having a fun week of being sick! Yay! Not. It is no fun and i hate it. Well I came to realize something. I am not a young spring chicken anymore. I need to start taking care of my health and stop being such a idiot. I am sick because I thought it would be a rather great idea to go out for a walk in the rain. Needless to say that idea backfired on me and I am now in this current state. Also I should really at some point start considering, so I am not put into this pathetic state any longer, downing vitamin c tablets like they'll go out of business if I don't. I seriously probably don't get enough vitamin c so sucking down oranges or pills will hopefully help keep me form ever getting this bad again.

I also realized that as an adult it is up to you and you alone to be responsible for your health. Whether that is going out and getting your own meds, to seriously watching what you do to your body and what you put it through. So this sickness has me reconsidering what I do to my body and how after this I will hopefully turn around and be smarter about taking care of myself.

With some time

I am so sick and tired fo wanting romance and wanting somebody! Its frustrating. I constantly wish someone would drop form the sky and boom we would have our own quirky romance story. But it's not like that. It can;t be like that. In a relationship its not supposed to be about what you want but you're supposed to be there for the other person. I want to feel like I am wanted, like someone cares but its not supposed to be about how I feel.

I try to compare ad make it more like my relationship with Christ. I deny myself to do God's will, to give everything I am. I'm not supposed to do it for God's gift He gives me, but for God alone and because i love Him. I suppose even in relationships you have deny yourself as much as in your relationship with God. I try and think of this but I don't have the answer. That's why i don't and won't date. I don't have the answers. Not even to the questions of God or about myself. There's a lot in me I need to change before I get involved with someone.

I'm pretty messed up on the inside. I'm fickle, emotionally unstable, depressed, but I know I am better, than I was before and i am getting there slowly and yeah I know I'll get there someday with God's guidance and help. I suppose I need patience (why is that always the underlining message I have to learn) and wait until my turn comes. I have a list of priorities and I suppose if i focus on that list one item at a time I'll get their eventually.

Should've when you could've

So I was just enrolling for me next online courses for the semester when a thought occurred to me. How I wished I was still at my University instead of being kicked out I'd have used my time better. I'd have gotten up early to read my bible more, been involved in more campus things, gone to more lectures and chapels,etc. Then another thought came: why don't I do that now? What's stopping me from waking up early and spending my time with God in His word? What is keeping me from being involved in church functions (though having a car and my license would help but that's not the point) and going out and hearing speakers? Nothing is stopping me but myself.

Seem's I have been hindering myself lately, letting my flesh get the better of me as time goes on and frankly it is annoying. I fee so far, so lazy, so unmotivated. I had a long look at myself last week and I didn't like what I saw, where my true desires lie (that is another post altogether) and just...yeah. I want to change. Honestly, I'd rather be taking steps backwards than just standing here, like an idiot, not doing anything. Because if I a moving backwards at least I can fix it and move forwards. I don't like where I am at right now but I am working towards a goal of going where God wants me to go. I don't want it to be my will or to be here standing doing nothing nay longer. I want to get up and go.

Changes

I feel I need to change. I feel there is a part of me that need's to be set free, and that this current me, this old man needs to go away. I need to grow up and go on to become an adult now because, quite frankly, i do not like myself very much.

Realization

The other day at church, before the service even began I learned something. First off there is this girl (yes i know how many stories begin THIS way) that I think is cute at my church but it always seems she is focused on the worship team and doesn't ever really notice me. See that was my thought process and then I realized something about that. She is focused on God, on church, on the worship team that she doesn't need to notice anything else. She isn't looking for anything else to take her time because God is so central to her life. All of her priorities are in order and on God.

I realized this what I, what we all need: God first in our lives and nothing else mattering. In fact we're supposed to "seek first the kingdom of God and all these things will be added to you." (Matthew 6:33) Nothing in this life matters, is more important than God's will. The fact of the matter is that it is God's will first and everything else falls in second.

Now I am not saying to use this to get what you want, because it is God's will, not your own. I feel eventually God will break us so we say "not my will but yours Lord" than keep fighting it. I feel for myself when it says "all these things will be added to you" it is the things of God like faith. Whatever God deems necessary to be given to us in His plan. What I am trying to get at is making God central in your life, making Him your only passion and love.

I fail daily, I know this. I put off reading my Bible, overcoming temptation and other things but I am getting better everyday and even better now that I realize it. God isn't just someone we go to when we have trouble and we aren't Christians just when we are at church or around church friends. We are born again and through this are new, different than when we were in the world. Situations don't define if we are a Christian or not. We should shine forth Christ at all times.

We try to hide and say to look to God and not us but "We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God." (2 Corinthians 5:20). We are supposed to show Christ to the world! Because Christ is supposed to be central in our life.

I try and hide from the world and say "No! Do not look at me for i am human! Look at God!". I do not want to be scrutinized unless they find things about me I hate and do not want. But that is my fault and not God's, I am a sinful man and though God knows my hear man does not. But to give myself further and further to God (as i should have done since my will is dead and God's is alive in me) will improve me! I take pride in that i can do such a thing but my pride is killed because I cannot do anything for God that i not His will and that He does not allow me to do.

It's quite funny really. I had written a draft of this out in a journal and it was nowhere near as long as this. God is good.

Death and Faith

The greatest aspects of faith often involve death. "Count yourself dead to sin" (Romans 6:11),"Put to death the misdeeds of the body" (Romans 8:13), "Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature." ( Colossians 3:5) just to name a few. Whether it is the death to yourself, and your will, the death of us and our brothers in sisters at the hands of the world or even the death of our loved ones, death and faith go hand in hand in sorts.

Think about it, we're to put to death the old man, our old selves before Christ, that is our will and make new in God's will for our lives. We are to "pick up your cross and follow me (Christ)" (Matthew 16:24). The cross, though a symbol of salvation, undeserved grace and mercy and most of all love, is all a tool of torture, of death and suffering. Yet we are to carry our own as Christ did. Christ went to the cross following God's will and we who are "like Christ" are to follow Christ and are called to follow a will above ours.

Then there is the suffering and death of our brothers and sisters. Even now, as some may or may not have heard, there is an Iranian pastor Youcef Nadarkhani who, for not denying Christ has been sentenced to death. Here is a man, in a country dominated by a religion which will only give you an option of convert or die and yet he still believes. Youcef could be executed at anytime, and he knows this but there he is, no recant, and ready to accept and take what will be given to him. Faith, in the midst of death. A hand in hand, in this instance, of faith and death. To be stared down with an almost guaranteed end and yet our faith, strong still continues. "For me to live is Christ and to die is gain." (Philippians 1:21)

Another example is out brother Stephen, who we have all read about in Acts 7. Stephen stands before the Sanhedrin and High Priest and after speaking 9that's right go read it for yourself) they take Stephen outside and stone Him. Stephen does not show fear but rather stays faithful to God till the end, even praying while he is being stoned to death.

Now, we get to the core of why i wrote this, death of loved ones. I cam up with this when I was visiting my older brother Ron. I never met him, he was born with a hole in his heart and passed away hours after birth. I have only been to see him maybe two to three times, the latter one being just this past wednesday. I stood in the cemetery where he was buried, surrounded by other kids and babies who had not been long in this world and I lost it. I could only glance for a few moments at any of the stones and their inscriptions before I could feel my heart breaking. I thought to myself that, "this is it. This is the greatest act of faith ever. To have your child who spent 9 months growing in you, being a part of you and however much time they did spend in this life with you, ripped out of your arms so violently, so quickly and to still believe in God and that He is good."

I have often had my own explanation as to why evil exists in the world. But that has always been to the question of war, famine and other evils. But never, have I ever had to address it to death, especially death of children. I had always said that evil exists because it must exist. Because to understand God, you must understand that which is in the darkness, is on the other side of the spectrum of God. I cannot say "God is good all the time" if all i have is blessings and smiles. Even during the most evil points in my life and lowest of the lows I must realize God is good. But evil exists also because no one has done anything to quell evil, famine and war. We have been given, by God, the tools to stop it and we don't use it. God's knocking and man isn't answering but that is beside the point as we are getting off topic.

The fact is there will be a time when you ask "why did this happen?" and life won't make sense. I had asked God once, why he had allowed me to go through what I considered the most terrible week ever in my life and the answer I got was "You know I am good and that all things work for Me. Now i am going to make you believe it." Yes, I knew God was good and that His will was over my own but I did not believe it. When things, in a single day turned around and got better I fell to my knees and worshipped God because I realized and knew he was good.

I had to have faith, in that moment of what I considered a dark time. I had nothing to do, no plan, no great escape, nothing. I could do nothing and was powerless and it required faith in God for what I had no power over. I cannot even begin to understand, or explain any of the pain that must come with losing a child, a parent, a loved one and what very well may be the darkest time in any human beings life. I do know however that during that time faith is what is needed, because for all of our cleverness, intelligence, cunning, craftiness, and planning nothing in that moment can truly save us except faith in God.

I am not putting down other things that bring us comfort. Whether they be friends, or family, tea and book or some other way for us to cope as long as we do not forget the God who has provided us with these things. The greatest acts of faith are in the face of death because in those moments when we would rather gnash our teeth, beat upon our chests and wail in agony, God calls us to take comfort in Him.

And for me it was Tuesday...

Chun-Li: My father saved his village at the cost of his own life. You had him shot as you ran away! A hero at a thousand paces.
M. Bison: I'm sorry. I don't remember any of it.
Chun-Li: You don't remember?!
M. Bison: For you, the day Bison graced your village was the most important day of your life. But for me... it was Tuesday.

—Street Fighter: The Movie

Today is, as many of you know obviously, Valentines day. A day for appreciation of loved ones, whether they be family, friends or significant others and yes even our own pets. But for some like myself, it is merely a tuesday. A day that i live with memories of my past relationship failures and try and keep them out of my head, reminding myself i have moved on and I am not that man anymore. But it is a day I do not enjoy facing though in my three years of being single it has become easier and this year, I discovered something: it is just tuesday.

We slap a name on a day, give it a theme and suddenly that day is sought after with anticipation! Valentines day for instance makes the hearts of men and women flutter and groan with "how doth I love you let me count the ways!" and other lovey dovey things. But, as the cliche goes "every day should be Valentines day for you and your (insert relationship status here)!" rings out as well. We even use it at Christmas time with "we should honor the Lord all year round not just on Christmas.". And this is true!

When did it become mandatory for such a thing?! I understand for some couples who might be newlyweds or engaged or just starting out that it might be a big deal but if you think about, haven't they been your valentine all year long? So then what? When you weigh things out do you say "well so and so did this for me on valentines day, so I think I will give him/her another chance!" or do you weight out the relationship as a whole?

For some, today has sucked and it sucks more because the whole day is focused on being romantic and confessing from the rooftops and for some it has been nothing but great because of the immense romantic feelings they have but let me ask each this: what happens tomorrow? What happens when the dawn of the new day begins and yesterday is nothing but vapor in memory? Well kids that's up to you. i am just some crazy guy ranting so what do i know? Just go out and make each day yours.

To Everyone out here...

Happy Valentines Day! I hope the whole day was wonderful and blessed for all of you! Whether with your husband or wife, boyfriend or girlfriend, 50 cats or just you and a bunch of chocolate, I hope it was a blessed day.

Adventure time!

Woo! i am off for a very most epic and exciting weekend. I get to see some friends i have missed and are long overdo for hugs. Hugs and excitement. And trouble. Heh. In the meantime I will leave you with this fun and lovely picture of my friend stabbers and I before the mayhem begins. Have a great and wonderful weekend everyone!

Nice Guys Finish Last part 2

So I ended my last post of nice guys finish last and after a search on tumblr (I'm really regretting these searches anymore) I found that the general consensus isn't the same anymore on viewing nice guys. According to quite a few posts nice guys are worst than the douche bags. Why? because apparently if a guy is acting nice it must mean he is attempting to use his nice act to get you into bed easier. Really? REALLY? Do people honestly believe this? I mean come on. Do people lack so little faith in humans that they believe that to act nice is a ploy just to have sex with a woman?

Granted I could understand the point they make. They try and say that nice guys feel they're entitled to something like sex or dating since they are such nice and wonderful people to the woman. But those people aren't real nice guys because what they want is just to use the woman. A real nice guy wants a relationship, wants something deeper than just sex. I'm a nice guy and i am nice to women and I feel like I am entitled to nothing but their friendship. I'm not looking to have sex with a girl or anything. I am looking for an honest relationship whether that be a romantic one or a friendship one.

Do i expect something? Yes I do. I expect mutual friendship and respect. That's. It. That's all a nice guy wants is simply mutual respect and friendship and you know what? If a guy complains then that's his problem. i have been placed in the "friend zone" quite a few times. Know what I did? I moved on! if she doesn't wanna be with you then she doesn't wanna be with you! Move on nice guys! But don't you dare complain and say "I did this, this,this, this." You were being a friend and you are entitled to nothing but the benefits of being a friend.

Yes, I was even there before and felt entitled and you know what? it destroyed me and I made a lot of bad decisions. That's why i say never feel you are entitled to anything for being someone's friend except respect and friendship. Because if you are just doing things, expecting to be rewarded then there isn't much worth to it is there?

So the main point here I am trying to make is that not all nice guys are just pretending or bad or whiny. Some actual do care and are there for you because they want to be. Don't count them all down and out but to you nice guys you should know that being nice isn't about getting a reward. The only reward is the good feeling and hey if you end up liking a girl and she says no and dates some jerk or something then just move on. You can't control who she likes or is with. Your feelings can move on but you should still be there for her as a friend.

Nope not dead and gone

Well it's been a heck of a long time but here I am. My lack of posts the last few weeks has been due to something positive actually. My church does a fast and I as I don't do food, I do a media fast instead. Three weeks, no internet. I learned a lot about myself for three weeks without something to block everything out of my head here online. Instead it was just me and myself nothing more. I learned something. I give my flesh way too much room to grow and fester into something more. This has to stop. I will write more in length later on everything and explain better. It's bittersweet to be back online.

Happy New Year and Congratulations!

Happy New Year to everyone on blogger! I hope and pray that this year will go well, if not better than the last. I will eventually post about the new year and all that but this post is more a dedication. A dedication to my dear friend Mackenzie Mulligan an his new blushing, beautiful bride Ann! Congratulations to both of you and thank you both for having me at your wedding. I feel so honored to have taken part in your special and beautiful day! I pray for nothing but blessings to the both of you! Again, Congratulations!