Damaged

Its just...I am an emotionally damaged person. I suppose i should take care of that but i haven't. Heck I was fine till this summer when things started collapsing. I don't know why they did either. I was in control but now...I'm not. No clue why. I should be smarter than this, wiser but I am not and its strange. Because how pathetic am I that some of my inner turmoil is because of a woman? A woman that even if she shared feelings, I would not date at this time probably. How pathetic am I? I just want to feel like there is someone out there who shares feelings for me. I want to deal with it so I can move on from here. So I can move to the next issue and get pass it. Lord, help me. Help me to get through this with my sanity intact, let me learn form it but keep me strong. Let me be only consumed in you and give me the knowledge, wisdom and discernment to deal with all of my thoughts. Help me Lord. Help me.