My Mask

For those of you who do not know I wear a mask. I wear one everyday where I smile even though I feel so sad inside. Sad because of circumstances, because of things I could not stop and as such have not let go. It has gotten worst these last few weeks as the mask has been exposed and cracked a few times. In the end though, this is necessary. My mask is breaking, I cannot hide behind it anymore and I feel at peace knowing this. I can't hide anymore. My life depends on me losing the mask. Exposing my insecurities, my fears, my sadness, anger, grief, hatred even. All of my inner, deep emotions and scars. Its all being washed away slowly through all that has happened. I've been broken, and my healing has begun. Its time to let it all go and drift off down the river, never to be seen again. Washed away by His mercy, grace, love and who he is. He is God. He loves me and I love Him. I suppose this is growing up. There is so much more I need to fix but i feel at peace right now. For the first time in a long time.

But You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one to lose control
You say You will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go, You say let it go

Tenth Avenue North-Let it go