Worst

Summer...ever. Seriously. this has to be the worse summer ever in my life thus far. A complete crap blizzard since it seems crap has yet to stop hitting the fan! So much emotional turmoil and I seriously need to see an end soon. Whatever it is God is trying to show me, I need to see it, because this is too much. We are trying to figure out if my brother will be okay as tests are being run as he had a mini stroke a few weeks back, I have been kicked out of school and have to go to a new one for possibly a year, due to some idiots mistake my mother has had one of her checks taken away, the check that pays our house payment mind you, and my friends are suffering but there is nothing can do to help. Somebody wake me up if this is a dream because I don't wanna have to dream it anymore. I'm also dealing with the temptation of drinking to make it all go away. But I have to resist the urges, I don't, can't become an alcoholic. Its something that would affect my family, any ministry I am involved in, and my entire life in general. Nothing pretty. My only solace is potentially going on a camping trip next week, and seeing some friends. So here's hoping that works.