Seems like my mind is being plagued anymore. Saw someone tonight I hadn't seen in a long while, a girl I used to like. I say used to because despite my feelings, I never had a chance. Chasing a ghost. Mainly because she is interested in a good friend of mine. Honestly, and always despite my own feelings I'll move over in situation like these. Why stick around? She has an interest in him and I have known her longer and we spent more time together but despite that if she was interested I'd have hoped she would have tried to show me her feelings. I actually did tell her i had feelings and the way she responded led me to the conclusion I didn't have a shot, I got the hint. Yet here I am and I cannot help feeling something, despite never having a chance. It sucks. Seems looking at other people's relationships and such, I think about my own. And as I write this, she sends me a text because of a text I sent my friend which was taken wrong, and she replies with:
"I don't even know what to say to you right now"
Ouch. Yeah that sucked. Add in the blatant fact that I stand there and take some type of abuse from people. Usually undeserved violence form my friend she is interested in. I don't think people ever stop to think how their actions affect people. I mean hell, I stand aside, feeling for you as you are interested in my friend, give you brotherly advice and you go off on me like that? man, no wonder i have been depressed. I'll be glad when they get together, or don't get together maybe then things will be normal and we can just talk again because this is stupid. Oh well. Suppose that is what I get. Cause she seems to have forgotten of my feelings for her but if I had a chance I'd explain it. I had to get over you, you're interested in my friend and I never had a chance. man, sometimes life sucks. If I didn't have God, it'd be worse. I suppose I just have to keep climbing over mountains before God finally leads me to the one. Then none of it will matter anymore. i just wish I met her already.
I guess we all had someone we liked at some stage in our life, where the feelings weren't reciprocated. You can't help who you fall for, and it's unfair that you get verbally beat up for it. Try not to settle for the 'oh well' comment. Everyone deserves someone good, if you look too hard there's a chance you could walk right by her. As they say.
ReplyDeletethank you for your words of encouragement, they helped a lot and today is going much better.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard to know what to do in a situation like this...just, try to look beyond it, I suppose. When I think of all of the other things wrong with this earth and mankind and living conditions around the world, I look back to the drama going on around me and I remove myself. It's not worth the stress, really. They'll do their whole mating dance and have their drama, but you can be looking around for things that make you truly, deeply passionate. Could be politics, law, science, anything. Whatever it is, I'm betting it deserves more attention than your two friends (no matter how close they are.)Stay strong :]
ReplyDeleteWell said olabimpe
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